The music will live on

No words can express, only memories left. I grew up with his music, his videos, his moves, his energy and his unique talent that he shared with the world. There will never be another like him, never before and never after. I will always remember his gift and what he shared with us all. And how I felt as a kid, so alive dancing and singing to his music.

Thanks MJ for everything you gave us, especially me, and made me feel so happy and free when i danced to your music. I am so privledged to have grown up with your music and feel happy that you left such a mark on popular culture.

May you rest in peace XXXX

MJ 1958 - 2009

Eeek, SO exciting!

You know when you are just so psyched you can't really eat, sleep or function?! Well thats me at the moment. I am just soooo excited for the hen do trip, but at the same time I have butterflies and am just stressing about packing, as i'm only taking a small suitcase (hard to believe if you know my previous holiday packing craziness) and obviously there is a limit to what I can take. But probably for the best that I don't take too much as I ALWAYS pack too much and this way it means I take everything that I will wear. And I could always re wear vest tops etc. Well I have my five evening outfits sorted so I dont need to worry about those, and its just the day stuff, but thats easy,hopefully we will just be in our bikinis around the beach and pool.

Also add to the fact that there finally seems to be some good looking blokes on the dating site im on (but luckily im not paying anymore as my subscription expired for now) and there is this really cute guy (hope its his picture!) on there who is 30 and I winked at him, he winked at me back (relatively speaking of course!) and he then emailed me, sounds really nice, shame he lives in surrey, but still, potentional definatley, I'm not going to let my location limit me, doesn't seem to be anyone decent where I am! His name is Simon, he has blue eyes, 5'9, cute cute cute! Mind you this is early days, i might not be saying that when we meet up, if we do! Luckily, he lives near where i used to go to Uni and where my friends live, so could be handy if i needed to pop down to theres for the weekend and kill two birds!
Well its so early days we are practically in the victorian era, so i might be tempting fate, but would be so lovely to meet up with a hottie for once! ; )

I heart the weekend

Hoorah its nearly the weekend! I am still at work, but luckily most people are in the friday mood, although tbh there arn't many peeps in, which is nice. Someone has brought in a gazillion quantities of food, all rather tempting but I am trying to be good and not eat too much before my holiday! Yesterday I was really bad and ate way too much so today I have to be good. Although tomorrow I will be drinking alcohol but only half a bottle, while watching confessions of a shopahollic with carrie!

Whats up and whats down

So today has been a glorious sunny day and it does make a change for the sun to be constantly shining as it has done over the last 3 or 4 days. Have heard the summer is going to be even better this year which is great, as I think Ill be spending alot of time here this year!

So decided to try this as I've seen it on other blogs and thought its was cool so:

Whats Hot:

* The weather being so lovely and sunny

* Portugal (hen do) being just 10 days away!!!! SO excited! Have ordered my currency and have just got to get a few other bits and pieces this saturday

* Getting my hair highlighted this saturday - am fed up with my almost light brown coloured hair, and am going to up the blonde with no dark put in at all! Cant wait, think I look so : ( the darker my hair colour

* My magic tan and wax next tuesday (ok wax isnt something to look forward to i know but i like to feel neat and tidy - freak that I am!!) Just hope the Magic tan booth doesn't make me end up looking like Ross in that episode of friends, ha, oh dear.

* Alice in Wonderland anything. Am obsessed with the book, and this amazing website by a wonderful UK jewellry designer called Hoolala: http://www.hoolala.co.uk/charmnecklace3.htm
Her stuff is amazing and so unique - really want the alice charm necklace - but may have to wait a while as its not cheap, but its oh so unique!

* My fab Madonna Like a Virgin t shirt from Junk Food: http://www.sweetnsourtees.com/junkfoodmadonnavirgintourgirlyt-shirt.aspx

I was accidentley trying to work out the price in total on this US website sweet n sour tees when i accidently pressed buy now and oops the transaction went through!! Oh well. And typical as I go and buy it it becomes available at a UK online retailer Truffle Shuffle when i couldnt find it anywhere over here before! But I actually have managed to save money by buying it from the us as it only cost £29 including shipping when its £30 on truffle shuffle not including delivery! So method to my crazy typing madness this morning. Of course I'll be wearing it on 4th July at the O2 when me and Rachel see the Queen in action on the dance floor - cannot wait!

Whats Not:

* My hideous hire car - a Citroen C1 or something random like that - its basically like a Toyota Aygo, i.e rubbish. You put it in 1st and your sat at the traffic lights, roundabout, junction whatever. When its all clear/red, you try and get going but all the bloody engine does is rev and go at a snails pace. Very embarressing (as if not having air con, central locking, electic windows, sun roof, car lighter to play my ipod through was bad enough!) and also very irritating when you want to go some place. Rubbish Rubbish! Thank god my car (and its dents bless its little heart) will be fixed by thursday.

* Online dating. Consistently rubbish and a waste of money. The guys I like and wink at/email etc dont wink back or email me! Go figure! You've seen my photo! (lol ok slightly narssicistic of me to say that but i know what i look like lol) all i get is the dross and people who look nice but like in france. Uh huh, yeah like a relationship is going to happen like that. Its not sleepless in seattle! Good god. I do give in with it I really do. I guess you have to be in it to win it, but I also think if you go looking for it you don't find it and to be honest I'm pretty happy as I am, my myself and I. If someone comes allong, great, if someone doesnt, oh well, I'm still going to have a stellar time and not get myself down about it. Life is for living and I intend to do that!!

* Being pale. Ugh I bemoan having to wait for a tan! I am not going to use any of my fake tan products until after my magic tan next tuesday. Theres no point as it will come off in bits on my skin and look all patchy when they apply my new golden gleam. So best to start on a blank canvas. Will just be exfoliating this week. I will also be pretending pale is interesting (whoever said that obviously hadn't discovered the joys of fake tan and was obviously ginger) and pretending im like Madonna who never tans (but personally could do with a bit of colour on those biceps)

* No air con at work, being all sticky and sweaty (and not in a good way) and just feeling ugh at work. Thank god the lady I'm working for is a sweatheart and never has a go at my lack of scholastic apitude.

* Not yet looking like a svelt like stick insect. Ok slightly exagerating the stick insect part. A normal size 12 will do, a la Holly Willoughby (although personally i think shes selling herself short and shes more of a uk size 10 to me). Well i know it will take time i just want results now. But hey ho, better to keep it off longer if it takes time.

* Laurens last ever Hills! I just finished watching the last ever Hills and it was quite emotional to see her go. I've loved the Hills ever since it started 3 odd years ago. I loved her in Laguna Beach and followed her in the Hills with relish. It just wont be the same without her, even though it is a pretty vacant thing to watch, thats why I liked it. But I still have the box sets and will continue to watch Lauren go forward with her career (humm?! failed fashion designer, now writer? time will tell what she puts her hand to next) and I'm sure she will always inspire me with her looks and style.

SO tired

Ugh so I went out with Georgina last night which was great fun, caught up on lots of stuff, had a lovely meal at the local posh chinese restaurant (prawns in lemongrass, coconut and peanut satay sauce - divine!) but drank and smoked (eek - naughty girl am I - I've aged myself about 2 years) way too much and have been feeling the effects all today at work! God its been difficult!

I even got the munchies (after a few hours of feeling a bit sick and off colour) when it kicked in and I had to eat a full fat packet of woucester sauce crisps which helped alot! My WW diet is on strike today, plus having a bbq later and i will be eating a burger, yum, so diet definately off today, back on tomorrow!!

Nearly the weekend

So its thursday, hoorah! Am glad its been a short week, although its felt like a normal week on occasions! Looking forward to seeing George tonight for a meal in town and some drinks, weather looks like its picking up for the weekend which is good. Although not planning on doing much this weekend except for sorting out what holiday clothes I'm taking to Portugal in two weeks time (today!!! eeeek SO excited!) and just cleaning and doing some shredding of old bank statements.

Was SO happy on tuesday when I got a lovely cheque from the tax man for over £800! Woo hoo. It was money owed to me anyway (due to temping loads last year and being on an emergency tax code for ages when i shouldn'tve been) but it still felt good to see a cheque for that amount, totally made my day!

Really looking forward to next weekend as I'm going to get my hair colour sorted out. My hairdresser Stephanie is lovely bless her, but her interpretation of how much blonde I wanted in my hair last time did not compute. It looks even darker than it was before, which was not my intention! No, I am a blonde forever and darker blonde makes me sad and i look a bit pathetic without a bit of brightness in my hair. So I'm going to get half a head of light blonde put in my hair. No adding darker blonde to break it up nonsense, there loads of that already! No just plain old blonde highlights is the order of the day.

Whilst I'm there I'm going to get some gladiator sandalls for the holidays and also some benefit high beam highlighter,and some other bits and bobs for the holiday.
Well the holiday isnt specifically a holiday, its my friend Jos hen do, and we are going to portugal on thursday 11th June and coming home early wednesday 17th June, so almost a whole week! Cannot wait. And I spoke with gemma my recruitment consultant at Michael Page and she told me she has been before and loved it and is going again in september which is good to know, its made me even more excited now!

Well better get on with some work *yawn*. Roll on 5pm!!

Make up and such like

So I haven't yet talked about my love of all things make up. I don't know what it is about it, but since I was about 10 I have been in awe of the stuff. It started with the Avon Catalouge, I dont use their products anymore but it was their products that started my fascination with painting my face and changing my image.

Of course I was well aware of make up when i was even younger, my mother painted me up like a china doll (a very overly made china doll i might add!) when i did tap dancing and was in the end of year show. I did look rather like a clown in her make up, but still, it was the look of the 80s, and Mum sure did like her blusher!

And then i got given a doll from my dad which he brought in america called 'Candy'. I think she was a doll I got before I got into barbie, as she was very hard plasitc and not very posable, and her hair was a mass of frizz and not very easy to style. She came with a make up kit,but i remember it looking more like a painting kit! Blues and red eye shadows clashed terribly.
But once barbie came allong she already had a painted face, and Jem and the Holograms had such fab painted faces there was no need (or no way) to change them.

So anyway, bringing us up to date with my latest obsession! Well its not really latest, I've been obsessed with make up for sometime. And my family always tell me off for buying more of it, i cant help it, section me, for I am a make up junkie!!

One of the brands I love the most is MAC. They came over here in 1994 and I remember reading all about them in the magazines and being very excited to hear of an ethically sound make up brand, that make up artists used and so did the celebs.

I am so excited that FINALLY MAC have opened a shop in cambridge, so i never have to worry about running out of any of my favourite products. I love the lipsticks and the lipglasses, the eyelashes, mascara, powder and foundation are all amazing, I also just brought one of their stippling brushes for foundation and its amazing, makes my foundation look flawless on.

Well I think thats enough for today, I will blog again soon!